It is the day before Christmas and I am very frustrated. About 6 weeks ago my right wrist and hand started aching something fierce. Eventually, last week my wife made an appointment with the doctor for me, which I attended. The doctor knows about my neck and back problems, but still thought that the problem is just because of overuse of my hand and that it is acute tendinitis that is affecting me. Because I am using Warfarin to thin my blood due to a DVT in my right leg, the doctor could not inject me with the strong stuff, as I am not allowed to use any anti-inflammatory medication. So, he gave me two cortisone injections. I had a previous DVT back in 2013 too.
Right now I cannot do my hobby–photography–at all. When I do use my cameras, whether it is the one with the 150-500mm lens on it, or the one with the 18-55mm or 70-300mm lens, I end up being in agony after just a few shots. I’ve been waiting for the Christmas holidays to visit all kinds of places to enjoy my photography, but that is just not happening.
Other simple things also cause me pain, like typing this blog post. I have to rest my hand every now and again for the pain to subside. At other times it just aches, apparently for the fun of it! Locking a door, turning a door handle, all those simple things that we all take for granted, cause me pain. I’ve even had to adjust the way I use a fork or spoon, because feeding myself causes pain!
Even writing causes me pain. In the mornings I spend time studying the Bible, and then I take notes of what I am learning. Or I simply write notes in the margin of my Bible. After every couple of lines I have to rest my hand because of the pain. I’m accustomed to pain, since I’ve had back problems now for many years, but not being able to use my hand, even for simple things is very frustrating!
However, one thing I always try to remember is that there are people in circumstances that simply overshadow mine! Whether I am in pain or not, God is good, and my frustration is merely my response to my circumstances.
Once again, I am reminded of Habakkuk:
“(17) Though the fig tree should not blossom And there be no fruit on the vines, Though the yield of the olive should fail And the fields produce no food, Though the flock should be cut off from the fold And there be no cattle in the stalls, (18) Yet I will exult in the LORD, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation. (19) The Lord GOD is my strength, And He has made my feet like hinds’ feet, And makes me walk on my high places. For the choir director, on my stringed instruments.” (Hab 3:17-19 NASB)
May I walk with the faith and trust of Habakkuk!